Letting Go of Painful Memories

Tiny Wisdom: 
.By:Lori Deschene


“Pain is inevitable.

Suffering is optional.”

~Unknown




Recently, I’ve been listening to a guided healing meditation I found online. I searched
for it because I sensed something was wrong with my body, a couple weeks before a
doctor confirmed it.

I didn’t expect it would bring up old wounds, but it has. There’s one part where the
soothing voice instructs the listener to think back to the confidence of childhood.
When I hear this, it reminds me that I wasn’t confident then, and that many painful
events chipped away at my self-esteem.

At this point in the meditation, I usually shift my thoughts to a moment when I felt
self-assured performing onstage, but yesterday something different happened.
Instead, I cried. And shook. And shivered. Right then, it all came back–anger, shame,
and a sense of powerlessness.

I was surprised to feel those raw emotions, after so many years of healing and
forgiving. It reminded me that letting go truly is a journey, not a one-time choice.

A while back, in an interview, someone asked me if I think letting go is easy. I think
she was surprised when I said, “No.” In theory, it is. Just like you would simply drop
your arms and release something heavy you’re holding onto, letting go feels freeing.

The hard part is that we often need to let go over and over again. It isn’t like pulling off
a band-aid. Old wounds have a way of resurfacing as we stumble, learn, and grow.

This doesn’t make us weak. It makes us human. We don’t need to let go of anything
forever. We just need to learn what it means to let go in a moment, and then remember
what that looks and feels like to do it again when necessary.

It may mean practicing mindfulness, or reminding yourself that it wasn’t your fault,
or revisiting what you learned through the experience. What matters isn't that we find
letting go to be easy; it’s that we find it to be possible.

Today if you find yourself clinging to a painful memory, ask yourself: How can I focus
on healing in the present, instead of living in the past?

By:Lori Deschene









Image by Sofan Chan, The Art of Happiness Gallery

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